Spouses Too Are Casualties in Church Conflicts

Spouses Too Are Casualties in Church Conflicts

I have had many restless nights and feel the Lord is nudging me to tell my side of what actually happened to my husband and me.

Many people have been hurt by the termination of my husband from the church he pastored.

I need to tell my story for two reasons.

I want to offer some insight so people who serve on the church staff committee will “step up to the plate” and claim ownership of what is happening in their church.

And, I need catharsis in order to move on.


Imagine with me that Monday afternoon in a late September.

My husband received a call from the head of church staff relations telling him the committee wishes to meet with him that same night.

Imagine with me that night when my husband comes home and tells me that he was literally “chewed up and spit out” by the committee members.

They told him how awful he was at most everything he did, and they strongly suggested he update his profile.

Updating his profile meant that he should begin looking for a new job.


My husband was also told not to say anything to anyone about this meeting. Looking back, I wondered for whose benefit the silence was intended, the people who initiated this crisis, the church, or for my husband and me.

During the days following, my husband sought to bring in a mediator to help with this conflict, but these same people said a mediator was not needed and that it was time for my husband to move on.

They were very clear that they wanted a change of leadership.

My husband reluctantly agreed to update his profile but told the committee he was not going to take the first thing that came along.

He also told them he did not wish to relocate if at all possible. He remained hopeful that the conflict might be resolved.


We were very upset by all that had taken place so quickly.

For many nights we cried and could not sleep.

I went to the staff relations committee in January to let them know how hurt I was over the way they had handled my husband.

I later received a note from one of the members expressing some empathy for our feelings.


For six months my husband sent his profile out to a number of churches.

Almost every month someone from the staff relations committee wanted an update on his progress in finding another church.

We were under enormous pressure.

In July, after returning from a much-needed vacation, the staff relations committee met with my husband and told him they wanted him gone by the end of August.

This decision had been made while we were away.


I could barely attend church because I felt everyone was talking behind our backs.

I wondered if I had any friends in the church. I would become physically sick on Sunday mornings and slip into the sanctuary just before worship began, and hurriedly depart once it was over.

I found it almost impossible to talk with anyone in the church because I was so hurt. I placed myself at the back of the church or in the balcony near a small group of people that I felt reasonably comfortable with.

They would at least smile at me.

I was there only to support my husband.

I hurt for him because he was basically alone when he was at church. He had no one to go to and felt no support for his ministry.

It struck me that he was like “Daniel in the lion’s den.” It is sad when the church is unwilling to comfort its own.


My husband read his letter of resignation on the Sunday after the terrorist attack on September 11.

Two weeks later he had to leave after twenty-five years of ministry.

Imagine what it must have been like for my husband.

He experienced the death of that which he had done for so long.

I have watched him grieve his loss.

And while he still cares for the people he served for twenty-five years, I, on the other hand, have distanced myself from them. It hurts too much to face them.


I am deeply grateful that my husband attended a wellness retreat sponsored by the Ministering to Ministers Foundation.

He was with other ministers who had been forced from their position.

My husband is very gifted.

A church could not ask for a kinder, gentler, caring, forgiving and loving pastor. In spite of all he endured, he still maintains a strong faith.

He remained quiet through it all and did not speak out because he did not want to divide the church.


Why are some ministers identified as the problem and become a scapegoat for some churches?

I don’t know what will happen to the church we left after twenty-five years.

I hope only for wonderful results for the sake of Christ.


The Healthy Transitions Wellness Retreats for Ministers and Spouses is part of the Pastoral Excellence Program of the Center for Lifelong Learning.

For more information and to register for this retreat, please contact Catherine Ralcewicz, Executive Director at mtm@mtmfoundation.org.

Editors Note: The Author’s name is omitted to maintain confidentiality for the persons involved. Reprinted by permission.

The Center for Lifelong Learning has partnered with the Ministering to Ministers Foundation to help address the crises of clergy forced termination. If you have experienced a forced termination from your ministry consider attending the Healthy Transitions Wellness Retreats for Ministers and Spouses retreat during September 30-October 3, 2019 for clergy and their spouses at the Center for Lifelong Learning. Below, a participant in a previous retreat shares her story.

One thought on “Spouses Too Are Casualties in Church Conflicts”

  1. Don says:

    Thank you for this blog entry. Eleven years ago I endured a dismissal from a congregation I had served, with integrity for 7 years. Their only complaints were that I got more self centered while I was going through cancer treatment several years earlier, and I would preach and teach the Bible like I believed it; it was not forbidden in the denomination I served. My wife endured slings and arrows of hatred, as did I. And not only did I lose many friends in the church, but a couple dozen pastors in the community ostracized me as if I had a disease they could catch. God bless the local Catholic priest, one non-denominational pastor in a struggling church, and a colleague who had been forced out of a church by a denominational official. They boldly came alongside me and we alongside each other.
    But what most people don’t consider in a situation like this is the pastor’s children. Church members thought it was okay to take their hatred of me and treat my children poorly because of it. My daughter was 15 and said, “I always looked at church as a place where people loved you no matter what. But that’s not true.” She discovered the importance of faith in God. My son who was 9 seemed to weather the storm well, and has a strong faith to this day.
    I could write more, but simply I say thanks for this reminder.

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